Me? a failure? GRRAHHHHH!!! >_< i am not a failure nor a looser, not by a long shot. why? beacuse i am more susseful then any of my sibilings. yet my mom called me a failure. I got so mad, that one word set me off. I started to cry and scream. How can i be even remotly classified as a failure? beacuse i'm not darth vader, or god? I'm still mad about it and it happened about 3 days ago. :-/ My damn older sister is a cashier, has 2 kids and dropped outta the airforce. I am a assist manager and goto school. Yet i am the failure. She married a guy aginst my parents wishes, and has never helped with anything and lived in my dad's house for 3 years with her kids, which i took care of, yet i am the failure. I stayed up endless nights to watch my dad when he was dying incase he needed anything, and she not once while he was sick asked him if he needed anything or went to see him, and my mom payes for her car insurance and gives her the minivan, and yet i'm the failure?!
AM I MISSING SOMETHING HERE?!?!
*fuming blazing mad*

Well i am almost done with fixin up my site. I but need to edit themes and watnot. At college right now and i'm thinking to take a few online classes next semester so that i have time betwix work and stuff.

thinking to re-vamp vibical and open up pl. I'm working on that right now.
Navjot boght a portable DVD player which hes quite obssed about, I got some tenhi Muyo Dvds, but i'm thinking i want ruonin Kenshin ones too i'm really starting to like it.

a lot, its been hurting almost all day, so have my lungs. my ulcers have goten worse i've now got internal bleeding. time to call my doc. i don't like docs and hospitals.
oh what will become of me?

i saw a spider in my room, i'm not afird of spiders and don't find them yucky or anything, but it was big so i was kinda just watching it crawl around. Last night the heating wouldn't turn on and it was really cold, so my brother fixed it by himself, for the first time without my dad their to tell him or show him or anything. And while i was laying in bed thinking about that i thought about how i raked the leaves all by myself this year, without my dad telling me or me helping him. It was a bit sad.